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GBHunter

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Re: mugo
« Reply #60 on: October 21, 2014, 10:41 AM »
The reason I do not remember much is shortly after quitting the club I was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma. The drugs they used earased years from my memory and all I have left is what I wrote in a journal and what my wife tells me. I do no expect you to believe me an im certainly not going to submit pictures of the scars on my back from the lung surgeries.
 

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Re: mugo
« Reply #61 on: October 21, 2014, 11:53 AM »
Interesting, Mugos in Southern Utah. Hot dry summers and coldish winters.
 

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Re: mugo
« Reply #62 on: October 21, 2014, 12:23 PM »
The reason I do not remember much is shortly after quitting the club I was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma. The drugs they used earased years from my memory and all I have left is what I wrote in a journal and what my wife tells me. I do no expect you to believe me an im certainly not going to submit pictures of the scars on my back from the lung surgeries.


 Mr. Hunter. Hearing that who cares about who said or did what? I for one am truly glad to hear that you are still with us. I don't know how far away you live from the greater Detroit area but when I come down next year for the four Seasons bonsai club show I wouldn't mind meeting you and maybe talk trees and such.

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 Mike Frary
 

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Re: mugo
« Reply #63 on: October 21, 2014, 12:25 PM »
The reason I do not remember much is shortly after quitting the club I was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma. The drugs they used earased years from my memory and all I have left is what I wrote in a journal and what my wife tells me. I do no expect you to believe me an im certainly not going to submit pictures of the scars on my back from the lung surgeries.

But I do understand and sympathize, and I am sorry for what is happening to you.  The real problem here is this;  if you don't remember any of this the emotions surrounding the incident should have been erased as well.  But you decided to post anyway, something I am sure if you had thought about you would have realized someone is going to get real pissed off----and you would have been right.  I wish you well and hope for your recovery.

I'm with Mike I would like very much getting together with you over some coffee with pine needles and dirty finger-nails.  Mike can tell you.  At the last show we sat around sold trees and designed bonsai.
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Re: mugo
« Reply #64 on: October 21, 2014, 05:52 PM »
Those things sound nice and I do enjoy a good tree talk..NO COFFE as the police will be trying to get me out of a tree.
Im disabled a nd on disability since the surgeon messed up one of the 11 hour surgeries. I feel useless,  taking up space while working people pay my bill. Its not fair! As you can tell im not in a happy place now..yet another "benefit" of chemotherapy the damage this /$%= did makes me wonder if surviving was worth it. But Im all about friendship  ;D. Things were said and its done, in the past and useless to revisit, I apologize for any harm that my posts caused.

  Im not sur if bonzai is my thing yet..honestly Im usless to everyone.   :'(   just the way I feel. 37 years old and just a waste.

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Re: mugo
« Reply #65 on: October 21, 2014, 07:14 PM »
GBHunter, may I offer a thought. I do Bonsai for me. No one enjoys their trees more than I do. But... My trees are not show quality. Yes it matters what others think but in the end it matters more what I think.

You are going through an extremely tough situation. Don't get down on yourself. Let your trees be part of your life and part of your enjoyment. Do Bonsai for you......

You do matter.... You are who you are and your trees are part of that.

Jay

 

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Re: mugo
« Reply #66 on: October 21, 2014, 07:47 PM »
Those things sound nice and I do enjoy a good tree talk..NO COFFE as the police will be trying to get me out of a tree.
Im disabled a nd on disability since the surgeon messed up one of the 11 hour surgeries. I feel useless,  taking up space while working people pay my bill. Its not fair! As you can tell im not in a happy place now..yet another "benefit" of chemotherapy the damage this /$%= did makes me wonder if surviving was worth it. But Im all about friendship  ;D. Things were said and its done, in the past and useless to revisit, I apologize for any harm that my posts caused.

  Im not sur if bonzai is my thing yet..honestly Im usless to everyone.   :'(   just the way I feel. 37 years old and just a waste.

That's a crock.  Stop feeling sorry for your self and running yourself down.  Life is too precious to give up on it and give up on yourself.  So what if for now people are supporting you.  Can you support yourself at this point?  If the answer is no why feel guilty about it.  God knows there are thousands out there that can and could work that are just sucking off the system.  Those are the ones that are a waste of space and useless. Essentially they are maggots.  You my friend are genuinely disabled and are just the kind of person this system was set up to take care of.  Find something that occupies your time positively and do it.